WOW!

That's all I can say. I never thought a memorial service for someone I had never met would affect me so profoundly. When Brooke Shields spoke my heart broke for her on the loss of her good friend. The tribute songs were so touching! Usher going down in front of the family and singing to the casket was heart wrenching. If there was ever a current pop star who made no bones that MJ was his idol, Usher was it. I loved it when Rev. Al told Michaels 3 children that there was nothing strange about their daddy, it was strange what he had to go through. At the end of the service when the performers that were supposed to go on tour with Michael sang We Are The World and the family came on stage, that was great. Poor Paris, she ripped my heart out. I was already crying but went into all out ugly cry when she spoke of her daddy. I couldn't imagine loosing a parent at such a young age.
I know there are those out there who think he was a bad man. As you know, I don't. I think he was a great performer, singer, dancer and humanitarian. I hope that his children will get to know him through videos and interviews that were done with their daddy over the years. Michael Jackson will be missed by every fan. I only wish I had the opportunity to see him perform live.
In the words of Marlon Jackson, "Maybe now they will leave you alone". Rest in Peace Michael.

How will you remember him?

How will you remember the King Of Pop?



I will remember him for his great music and music videos as well as giving back.Yeah he had some (okay a LOT) plastic surgery. So what. He was ridiculed as a child by his father telling him his nose was too big, he was ugly, he was too black. So he died not looking black at all and with a nose that was barley visible!
I don’t think Michael molested anyone either. If I can be proven wrong I will be the first to admit it. I’m sorry but if someone molested my child there is no amount of “hush” money to keep my big mouth shut. Both situations just scream money hungry parents to me. Why did these parents continue to let their children stay with Michael after they supposedly found out their kid had been molested? Doesn’t make sense to me. I don’t buy the argument that no one would believe you because he is the King of Pop. I don’t buy that for one second. If there was physical evidence and witnesses that could testify (to more than just hear say) that would solidify the case.
I think Michael truly loved children and having them around him. I think he lived his childhood vicariously through them since he was robbed of his by a hateful, abusive, power hungry father.
Aside from all of the controversy that surrounded him Michael broke a lot of barriers for the African American community. Prior to him there weren’t very many videos from black artists on the air. There are been several artists say that if it weren’t for MJ breaking barriers for them they wouldn’t be where they are today.
I think Michael was a tortured soul from his childhood and I hope that he can rest in peace and watch over his children from heaven.

RIP Michael. You will always be remembered.

Life

Life has gotten in the way of me writing lately.

I am going back to school to get my BS in Business Management. I am hoping to start in August. If I can't swing that date then I will start in January. I'm crossing my fingers for an August start date.
I told The Boss about me going back to school, lets just say he wasn't the most supportive. The first words out of his mouth were..... "We're not paying for it" the next words were "don't you think you have enough on your plate". Niiice. Thanks for the vote of confidence. The classes will be online and I will have to log into each of my 4 classes 3 days a week and participate in the discussion on a forum type of environment. I can't wait to start. I could have started sooner but apparently I am no math wiz. The math score on my ACTs was too low so I had to take a damn math test. I did well in the general math area but the algebra kicked my ass. So I took the test again. Failed again, actually did worse the second time. So I have to go to a community college locally here to get 4 credit hours so I can transfer in August. What a PITA!! But the end result will be worth it.

The Girl had to go to the doctor today. We all have a head cold except for The Boy. Turns out The Girl has double ear infection. So Amoxycilin, Tylenol and ibuprofen here we come!!

The Boy is already bored and ready to start Kindergarten.

We are planning another trip to Arkansas hopefully at the end of July if I can get the time off from work.

Sister 4 that just graduated decided to move in with us. The Uncles wasn't all she chalked it up to be. And she was going broke paying for gas. Her and my mom are still fighting. She's 18 and mom doesn't want her living at home but she still wants to control her life. When Sister 4 tells her that things are none of her beez wax mom gets all pissed off and says mean nasty things to her that she later regrets. I feel like I'm being put in the middle. Mom can't have it both ways. She wants Sister 4 to grow up and be an adult then she needs to let her. Part of growing up is making your own decisions and living with the consequences, good or bad. Sister 4 is going to make her share of mistakes....and that's okay....how else does mom expect her to learn anything about life if she doesn't make her own decisions and mistakes. The whole thing is just frustrating. I'm about ready to tell mom not to call me to bitch about Sister 4's actions. You know Sister 1 and Sister 3 do a lot worse shit (illegal immoral shit) that Sister 4 ever thought about doing and she kisses their asses, loans them money, runs them everywhere....WTF is up with that!! Ahhh felt good to vent.

Life is getting busy!! Hopefully I can still blog once I start school. Heck....maybe I'll have more to blog about. I may need your help with homework ;~)

OMG!!! Michel Jackson is dead! RIP King of Pop :~(

Happy Birthday!!!

Happy birthday to my baby boy. Alright....you say your a big kid now. But you will always be my baby. My first born and my only son.

How in the world did you go from this:





To this.....





A bona-fied Kindergartner. When did this happen? I hope that at some point in your first 6 years I was able to teach you a few things. You are potty trained so I guess that's a step in the right direction :~) This next year of your life will be fill of new experiences for you. New friends, going to school a full day when you start Kindergarten, your first vacation bible school....I'm sure there will be many more firsts in this year of your life with Kindergarten starting.
I am very proud of your accomplishments this far! Writing your name, helping chase after your sister, learning that chores are a part of live (yes they suck but have to be done), learning to get yourself dressed, learning how to use the microwave, pouring your own drinks....the list goes on and on. I can't wait to teach you more about the world that we live in. It is truly amazing! You can be anyone that you want to be, don't ever let anyone hold you back.....I know you can do it!!!
I love you and am proud of you.

Love Always & Forever,

Momma

A Relay, A Sponge and A Fight.....

What do all of these things have in common?

Give up???

They all happened this past weekend.

Our local Relay For Life was on Saturday from Noon to Midnight. We were there from Noon to about 7:30 ish. I would have stayed longer....but then I suddenly panicked!! I had a birthday cake to make!!

They Boy's birthday is tomorrow but we celebrated it on Sunday. We finally got home about 8ish with 1 extra kid (sister 5). Then I put The Girl to bed and went into full cake mode.
I'll show you what it looks like if you promise not to laugh. He looks a little wonky but it was after 10 by the time I got around to frosting it.





I actually don't think it's too bad for my first attempt at making The Sponge in frosting! I finally made it to bed after Midnight on Saturday.

Sunday morning came too soon. I was hoping The Girl would sleep in since she was up later than normal on Saturday night. No. Such. Luck. She was up at the ass crack of dawn. Seriously. As soon as the sun was up, so was she. Time to invest in black out shades for her bedroom!

The kids were wound for sound. They wanted cake...like NOW!!! They were not impressed that they had to wait for the party. Sucks to be them ;)

My friend D came down with her boys. It was great to see the boys again! They live in another state with their dad. I haven't seen J since his Christening!!




We started the par-tay at 1:30 when my mom and younger sibblings arrived. The Boy opened presents....he was less than impressed. Seriously. I don't remember being son ungratefull for stuff when I was that age. I'm sure it's just a phase byt way to make mom and dad feel like crap-ola!!

We were out of birthday paper so his presents were in Christmas paper. He didn't even say anything!!





He got a small tackle box from me and The Husband......





And a Nerf gun he's been begging for (he's only smiling because we were teasing him about the earlier shots when he refused to show his teeth (or lack there of))......





And a fishing pole. This was all from good 'ol mom and dad. The fishing pole was about the only thing he was really excited about. The rest.....he could have taken it or left it. SNOT!!

D and her boys brought him kit thing that he can put together with daddy's help.



The Mother In Law and Father In Law gave The Boy 10 bucks. My mom bought him a pair of shoes. Not just any shoes.....40.00 Air-Rator Sketchers. WTF.....really mom? Did you have to do that? Her first mistake was letting him pick out anything in the shoe store. I would NEVER spend that kind of coin on shoes for a 6 year old. Not that I mind. I made sure that The Boy knew how special that was because most kids his age to not get 40.00 shoes. I would have taken him to wally-world and let him pick something out. Me = CHEAP!!!

After The Boy opened his presents we had cake and ice cream. By this time The Boy had decided he didn't want any cake....or ice cream. Little butthead.







After cake and ice cream it was time for the water balloon free for all!! We separated the big kids and the little kids and made a no head shot's rule. The kids had a BLAST!!













After water balloons out came the slip-n-slide



Everyone left about 3:30 or so. The Boy went to the Brother In Laws to stay the night with his boys. So it was just D and her boys, The Husband, The Girl, Me and Sister 4 for dinner. Sister 5 went home with mom and dad.

All in all the day wasn't half bad. I'm not sure what is going on with The Boy. Here lately since school has been out he has been a mouthy little cuss. I'm not quite sure how to squash it. You tell him he's not going to do something and he tells you he is. You tell him he is going to do something and he tells you he isn't. If anyone has any tips on this I'm open to anything. I've tried spanking, corner, bedroom, yelling and none of it's working.

Tomorrow is the big day. My little boy will be 6!! Off to order him a candy bouquet!!

Growing Pains

I'm having growing pains. My daughter is growing and she is being a pain.

She has transitioned into her toddler bed. Good...no? She will sleep in it at night but try to get her to take a nap and we have a nuclear melt down!! So tonight I'm going to the sitters to repo our pack n play that she was borrowing so The Girl will take a damn nap!
I had to put her in time out last night. I took her to her room, put her in her bed and shut the door. 2 seconds later she is crying and kicking her bedroom door. So I go in the kitchen to escape the noise. Then I hear "mommy I be good girl" it broke my heart. But I need to let her know who is boss so she had to stay in there for her full 2 minutes. When I let her out she was better. Until she decided to go on a hitting spree. So she got to stand in the corner. She took her punishment like a big girl and I didn't have to stand behind her to get her to stay in the corner. I told her she could come out of the corner because her punishment was over but she had to stop hitting. She told me "NO!" and kept standing in the corner. Whatever. Apparently The Girl likes the corner. **Note to self the corner is not punishment for The Girl....however she hates time outs in her bedroom.
The Girl is doing awesome at potty training. She has only been going through 2-3 pull ups a day. Hopefully she will be out of them by the end of the summer.
The Girl and The Boy go to get their pictures taken tomorrow night. Their appointments are at 5:30 and 6:00 pm....should be interesting. I'm sure I'll have to bribe them with McDonald's after to get them to behave.

The Boy is ready to start Kindergarten......like yesterday. He asks at least once or twice a week when he gets to go back to school. He's getting to be quite the little sassy pants. He does NOT like the corner. He and the corner are becoming fast friends these days. If he would just learn not to be so damn sassy him and the corner wouldn't have so many dates.

We are ready for summer to really begin and for it to get nice out!! The kids are itching to go outside and play in the water again but it hasn't been nice enough for about a week so they are going insane!!